Lunch

Hahaha wtf  I'm just trying to sneak a bite of what’s supposed to be my lunch, but I couldn’t wait and had to dig in early 😂. It’s just fried lumpia and rice, and I’m secretly munching away when Mr. Sameer walks by and goes, ‘Something smells kinda... off.’ 😳 I just sat there quietly, pretending I had no idea what he was talking about hahaha!

just push the door girl

 The lady in the other office is something else. Why does she expect me to open the door for her every time? She can easily push it open after unlocking it. It's a bit annoying, especially since she's capable of doing it herself.

Rude

There's one co-worker who acts like he knows everything and always rushes in to interfere. It's very annoying. A customer was looking for a breath analyzer and a sound machine, which I'm not familiar with, but this guy hurriedly handed me a peak flow meter as if I didn't know what it was. LOL. The most annoying part is how rude he is, acting like I don't know anything. Whether he does it unconsciously or not, but I'm offended.

attitude

Amila is giving me the cold shoulder, but I don't care. In fact, I'm happy because he’s not bothering me at all. However, it feels awkward when he’s around. The nerve! Why would he act like that just because I asked for my reimbursement? He's so slow at processing it, and he has the audacity to take it out on me. I still haven't received my reimbursement from last year. It feels like he doesn’t want to pay it, and I'm left thinking, what the heck? I’m not the owner of this company, nor am I inheriting it. So why not pay me? LOL, this accountant is acting like he's one of the directors, trying to tighten the belt.

Another thing, he’s been giving me a toxic attitude about my profession as a nurse. They expect me to be heavily involved whenever someone gets sick in the office, as if I’m in charge of healthcare here. Like when Kavindhu got dengue, Amila probably wondered why I wasn't the one taking care of him, and Addy ended up looking after Kavindhu instead. Seriously, the last time I checked my job description, I was a product specialist, not a company nurse. It’s absurd because I’m not here as a nurse, and I don’t want to pretend I know everything. Besides, I’m not practicing nursing in the first place.

These people think I should know everything medical-related. For example, the other day, Amila had knee pain, and Addy asked me about it. So, I asked Amila what happened, if he did something to cause it, how long the pain had lasted, and other questions like a nurse would. They just laughed and made me feel stupid for asking those questions. They seem to think I can diagnose people just because they mention something hurts. These people give me a hard time sometimes.

Mr. Sanath's Bday

Hey, so we had a little surprise for Mr. Sanath's birthday, and it turns out Mr. Habeeb and Mr. Jalal just got back from the UK. I get the sense that Mr. Habeeb is rolling his eyes behind my back.

Mr. Sanath's speech while cutting the cake was pretty cool; he seems like a laid-back and friendly leader. I'm digging his vibes compared to Mr. Habeeb, who gives off some strange vibes.

Oh, and guess what? Mr. Habeeb is officially back at work, and honestly, it's kind of a bummer for me.

Leave on rant

Hey, currently in the middle of my leave, and it's a bit frustrating how the company doesn't seem to respect that. They want me to cut it short for some unscheduled training on these islands, and why on earth do I need to be stuck with Azard all the time? Seriously. I can handle the training solo and travel without him. It's annoying, and I'm pretty peeved about it.

If Azard can handle the training, let him do it. I just needed to vent, even though I know there's not much I can do. Gotta go with the flow, I guess – just a regular employee in the grand scheme of things.

I'm not a fan of how these people seem to overlook the importance of respecting others' time. At this stage in my life, I couldn't care less about going the extra mile for this company. They don't appreciate my efforts, so why should I exert additional energy just to please them? I've been more than willing to contribute my best, but the recent IGMH fiasco has left me feeling like they could easily throw me under the bus and place all the blame on me.

What's more, I'm not pleased with how Ms. Yvonne and Habeeb are quick to point fingers at me and label me as irresponsible. In reality, I've been following their instructions and doing what I believe is the best course of action in that specific scenario. LOL I dropped a message to Azard, suggesting he give me a heads up if he plans to hit the island. Can't deal with last-minute plans. His response? I can reschedule my trip later. Classic. These folks are so unorganized, loving the spontaneity and randomness. Doesn't quite work for me, especially when it comes to job-related stuff. I'm all about planning and having some control over what's supposed to happen. Right?

Anyway will plan the necessary visit to the island right before my leave on Feb. I need a serious travel plans so I can do my study in between.  

Work Dynamic

Working with Azard has its moments. I mean, the guy's seriously reliable and super dedicated to his job, which is cool. But, you know, there are times when I feel he's a bit too eager. Like, he'd shoot off to report stuff to Habeeb without giving me a heads up, especially when it's about my accounts. It's like a surprise attack during meetings, and it hits me in the professional gut. Feels like my integrity's taking a hit, you know?

We teamed up recently for an observation plan at IGMH. Having some help was nice, but deep down, it felt a bit like a playful jab. I'm grateful for the support, but it makes me wonder if getting others involved hints at some dissatisfaction with my work. It's been a bit of a trend, and I can't help but question why they brought me in if they keep looking for alternatives. Sure, I'm getting paid, but it messes with my head, making me wonder how much they really value what I bring to the table. It's like a tug of war between feeling competent and questioning if I'm really fitting into their puzzle.

I'm not really upset with Azard; he's a good friend and a genuinely good person. It's just that I'm not perfect, and that's why I'm feeling this way.

No brainer

 So, my boss just had a super serious chat with me about the importance of our urine collection product because it supposedly brings in the big bucks for Sarstedt. He made it sound like I should focus on it like it's some top-secret mission, but the kicker is, he didn't even mention we had it already, haha!

He was dead serious about me getting all proactive with it. But when you actually look at the product, it's essentially a cup with a syringe-like thing that lets you extract urine without even opening it. It's like, "Duh, how hard can it be?" I mean, the folks in the lab aren't rocket scientists, but they can figure this out without a manual. It's just hilarious how he's making it out to be this major deal, like he's seen a problem coming that I didn't even bother asking about.

He also insists I should do a training session on it because he's worried people in the lab won't know how to use it and might start complaining to the Ministry of Health. Seriously, I was trying not to burst out laughing, but I'm keeping a poker face because he's already called me out for giggling. He's just so particular and over-the-top, it's hard not to smile. I'll just keep in mind how funny it is to be so serious about something that's basically a no-brainer. Haha!

I'm at a loss for words when it comes to our management, especially our sales director. I've got to be honest; I'm not a fan of his. His attitude just doesn't sit right with me. He comes across as incredibly sarcastic, difficult to approach, and quite full of himself.

Product Specialist

Haha, well, today was quite the day. My boss finally had a chat with me about not being proactive in my job. The thing is, I had already seen this coming ever since I received an email from my other boss, who happens to be his wife, two days ago. So, I was mentally prepared for the conversation.

During our talk, I couldn't help but laugh to myself as my boss and manager discussed my performance. It was interesting to note that my boss kept avoiding eye contact with me, and instead, he focused on my manager. It felt a bit odd because, as the boss, you'd expect him to look at me while talking. His behavior made me question my competence in my role, especially since my initiatives had been constantly scrutinized by him, my manager, and even the accounting department.

I couldn't help but think that he was being a bit dishonest. He had told me not to go anywhere before because we were in the middle of converting the IGMH, and now he's claiming I'm not proactive? It feels like a bit of a contradiction, and it would be nice to get some credit for my efforts, at the very least.

Not too long ago, I had a conversation with my manager about needing to travel to another island for work. I was met with skepticism, and my boss sat right next to me, acting as if he didn't even hear my request. These kinds of situations can make me question the fairness of the management at times.

To be fair, my company isn't all bad, but experiences like these can definitely make me feel undervalued despite all the effort I put into my work.

I can't deny that my workload is relatively more relaxed, but they shouldn't fault me for being passive. Just the other day, I tried to be proactive by asking my boss about how to address the issue with IGMH, and he responded with a sarcastic question, asking me what I thought I should do. That's the kind of boss he is, and it left me chuckling, to be honest. 😄

Moreover, I sense that they are trying to place the blame on me for what's happening at IGMH. Perhaps they assume I didn't foresee this issue, but in reality, the fault lies with them. They rushed into the IGMH conversion without proper planning or consultation with me. They didn't consider tube sizes, conduct random tube testing, check the machinery, or even discuss foreseeable problems in the future beforehand. Now, they're questioning my abilities and my proactivity, which honestly makes me chuckle in my mind. 😄

Well, I've reached a point where I'm not letting it bother me anymore. I'll just go through the motions for documentation purposes. After all, I'm sticking with this job for the time being because I have bills to pay and plans to make. It sometimes feels like being a corporate pawn; they're in charge, and they won't even consider asking if I’m okay 

Dealing with Workplace Insensitivity and Frustration

Why are people so insensitive to others' feelings? Maybe it's nothing to them, but I feel attacked whenever he says something.

Context: Our customers sent a low purchase order compared to previous ones, which is somewhat unusual for the accounting department. However, this accountant constantly comes to me, making fun of it and throwing shade as if it's my fault. I understand it's meant as a joke, but doing it in front of our colleagues makes me feel attacked.

My position in the office has always felt awkward in terms of workload. Yes, I have a relatively relaxed atmosphere, but the responsibilities that weigh on me create a lot of internal pressure. Honestly, I don't know where I stand. I feel that my job isn't clear enough to others, which is why they make fun of me.

I've carried out my responsibilities as a product specialist and even played a role in sales. Why should it be my fault if the client sends a low purchase order? Does my effort imply that I didn't handle my work effectively? Should I be visiting them regularly for this? Why should it be my fault? LOL

It's somewhat amusing, but at the same time, it's genuinely annoying. These specific individuals really know how to get on my nerves every time.