Product Specialist

Haha, well, today was quite the day. My boss finally had a chat with me about not being proactive in my job. The thing is, I had already seen this coming ever since I received an email from my other boss, who happens to be his wife, two days ago. So, I was mentally prepared for the conversation.

During our talk, I couldn't help but laugh to myself as my boss and manager discussed my performance. It was interesting to note that my boss kept avoiding eye contact with me, and instead, he focused on my manager. It felt a bit odd because, as the boss, you'd expect him to look at me while talking. His behavior made me question my competence in my role, especially since my initiatives had been constantly scrutinized by him, my manager, and even the accounting department.

I couldn't help but think that he was being a bit dishonest. He had told me not to go anywhere before because we were in the middle of converting the IGMH, and now he's claiming I'm not proactive? It feels like a bit of a contradiction, and it would be nice to get some credit for my efforts, at the very least.

Not too long ago, I had a conversation with my manager about needing to travel to another island for work. I was met with skepticism, and my boss sat right next to me, acting as if he didn't even hear my request. These kinds of situations can make me question the fairness of the management at times.

To be fair, my company isn't all bad, but experiences like these can definitely make me feel undervalued despite all the effort I put into my work.

I can't deny that my workload is relatively more relaxed, but they shouldn't fault me for being passive. Just the other day, I tried to be proactive by asking my boss about how to address the issue with IGMH, and he responded with a sarcastic question, asking me what I thought I should do. That's the kind of boss he is, and it left me chuckling, to be honest. 😄

Moreover, I sense that they are trying to place the blame on me for what's happening at IGMH. Perhaps they assume I didn't foresee this issue, but in reality, the fault lies with them. They rushed into the IGMH conversion without proper planning or consultation with me. They didn't consider tube sizes, conduct random tube testing, check the machinery, or even discuss foreseeable problems in the future beforehand. Now, they're questioning my abilities and my proactivity, which honestly makes me chuckle in my mind. 😄

Well, I've reached a point where I'm not letting it bother me anymore. I'll just go through the motions for documentation purposes. After all, I'm sticking with this job for the time being because I have bills to pay and plans to make. It sometimes feels like being a corporate pawn; they're in charge, and they won't even consider asking if I’m okay