Proactive

I'm really feeling down at the moment. I received an email from one of my bosses, and they basically told me that I'm not doing well in my role as a product specialist. They said that being proactive is a part of my job, and it felt like a direct criticism. I already had a sense that they might think I'm not proactive enough, but I genuinely thought I was doing my best.

I'm not sure what to do next. Every time I suggest something, there seems to be a roadblock. If I propose going to the island for work, someone always objects, and when I bring up additional training, my boss questions its necessity due to the island's small population. Even my expenses get closely examined when I want to visit the island. It's really frustrating, and I'm not sure where I stand in all of this.

I've tried talking and reasoning with my superiors, but it seems like I may have to let this issue go for now. I'm really hoping for a chance to leave this place soon. I'm praying hard for a change.

Does this make me feel inadequate? Yes, definitely. I truly believe this is more of an administrative problem and doesn't reflect my actual work performance.