idle

It’s kind of a weird spot to be in on one hand, it’s nice not being pulled into every major task at the office, but at the same time, it makes me feel a bit useless. Like I’m just extra manpower they tap into when they need an extra hand. I’m not really complaining, but I know I could contribute more if they actually let me, LOL.

What also gets to me is that some of my colleagues don’t take me seriously, even when I’m asking something important or work-related. Anyway… I guess I should just be thankful I’m getting paid without having to put in that much effort but still, it makes me wonder what I should actually do.

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under the weather

I’m not feeling well today. I started feeling off yesterday when I woke up with a strange sensation in my throat. I still went to the gym last night, but I almost tripped on the treadmill. Now I just feel really tired and heavy, and all I want to do is lie down. I would’ve taken a sick leave, but I’ve been waiting for the booking details from Germany. Hays.

The Art of Not Freezing Up

Yesterday, I kinda got scolded by my boss, LOL. I don’t know what it is, but every time he talks to me, I just freeze up. Words literally refuse to come out of my mouth. Honestly, I think he probably sees me as a bit dumb or something because I always end up mumbling. I get so self-conscious about what I say definitely not a good look for me, right? 😅

Anyway, what happened yesterday was about the unbooked hotel in Germany for the upcoming IGMH visit. First of all, I had no idea what kind of arrangement they had with the company in Germany or how this trip was planned. He wanted me to follow up on it with the Dubai office, which I did I asked Gladys about it and clearly told her my boss wanted an update on the unbooked days. I even worded my email carefully because I’ve learned from experience that when I just say things as told, it sometimes backfires and makes it look like it was my own idea. LOL.

So, the update came, and yeah, the last two days weren’t booked. Apparently, the company in Germany thought they were only supposed to handle part of the visit, not the whole trip. Meanwhile, my boss expected otherwise. Classic mix-up.

And honestly, I realized everyone around me is just playing safe. I didn’t mention the concern too directly in the email when Gladys asked me to send it, even though I’d already told her what my boss wanted to know. On the other hand, Gladys didn’t really ask Mr. Müller directly either or maybe she did, but he didn’t clarify things with the main office in Germany. 😂 And my boss too he could’ve just emailed Mr. Müller himself in the first place, but instead he waited for me to do it, and I obviously can’t control how fast people respond.

Anyway, when he found out about the hotel issue, he asked me about the departure date for the visit. I thought he meant the departure from the Maldives, but apparently, he was asking about the one from Germany. LOL. I couldn’t remember, so I said I forgot and that’s when he got really pissed. I don’t even remember what he said, but he was clearly frustrated.

So I just grabbed my laptop, checked the dates, and I think that’s when he realized he went a bit overboard. His tone changed suddenly he was calm again, talking like a normal, civil person. At that moment, I felt this weird warmth at the back of my head, like I just shrunk in my seat. I honestly felt so small. I know I should’ve remembered the details, but sometimes facing him is just… a whole struggle. LOL.

Housemates

So my housemates told me that he’s hiring a cleaner apparently because Ate Marie kept nagging him about the house. She’s been complaining that she’s tired from work and still has to clean when she gets home. Honestly, I found that a bit petty and kind of ridiculous, lol. There are three of us living here, and most of the time I’m just in my room minding my own business. They’re the ones always hanging around in the common areas like the kitchen and the toilet. So I don’t really get why she’s making such a fuss when they’re the ones using those spaces more than I do.

Then this Bangladeshi guy my other housemate goes out of his way to tell me they’re hiring a cleaner, even asking if I want my room cleaned too. Like, what? Of course I said no. Why would I let someone clean my room when it’s not even that big to begin with? I can handle my own space, thank you.

Honestly, these two are so childish. They argue over the smallest things and act like it’s the end of the world. I clean the common areas whenever I feel like it the kitchen’s spotless if I’m the one using it, and I do clean the toilet sometimes too. But they expect me to scrub every corner of the house like I’m their maid. No way.

Besides, they’re always home! How am I supposed to clean properly when they’re constantly walking around? And honestly, I just don’t like cleaning when someone’s watching me, especially that Bangladeshi guy. He gives off this bossy vibe like he’s the one in charge of the house. It really gets under my skin sometimes.

And then, get this he casually mentioned that he paid the Nepali cleaning lady 1000 MVR. Like… okay? What exactly did he expect me to say to that? As if I’d offer to split the payment or something? No way. They can’t even handle a simple adult responsibility like cleaning up after themselves, and now they’re acting like it’s a whole life crisis.

Ate Marie, on the other hand, is such a diva for making this a big deal. She’s not even the cleanest one! Her stuff is always scattered around the toilet, and whenever they cook, she usually leaves all the mess in the morning, dishes, pans, everything. That’s why I can’t help but roll my eyes whenever it feels like she’s hinting that I don’t clean. Like, girl… if only she knew. I actually clean when they’re not around.  I use bleach on the floor, the sink, and even the table just to make things extra tidy.

Seriously, that woman and the dumb guy deserve each other always complaining, acting dramatic over the simplest things, and then trying to drag me into their nonsense.