The Art of Not Freezing Up

Yesterday, I kinda got scolded by my boss, LOL. I don’t know what it is, but every time he talks to me, I just freeze up. Words literally refuse to come out of my mouth. Honestly, I think he probably sees me as a bit dumb or something because I always end up mumbling. I get so self-conscious about what I say definitely not a good look for me, right? 😅

Anyway, what happened yesterday was about the unbooked hotel in Germany for the upcoming IGMH visit. First of all, I had no idea what kind of arrangement they had with the company in Germany or how this trip was planned. He wanted me to follow up on it with the Dubai office, which I did I asked Gladys about it and clearly told her my boss wanted an update on the unbooked days. I even worded my email carefully because I’ve learned from experience that when I just say things as told, it sometimes backfires and makes it look like it was my own idea. LOL.

So, the update came, and yeah, the last two days weren’t booked. Apparently, the company in Germany thought they were only supposed to handle part of the visit, not the whole trip. Meanwhile, my boss expected otherwise. Classic mix-up.

And honestly, I realized everyone around me is just playing safe. I didn’t mention the concern too directly in the email when Gladys asked me to send it, even though I’d already told her what my boss wanted to know. On the other hand, Gladys didn’t really ask Mr. Müller directly either or maybe she did, but he didn’t clarify things with the main office in Germany. 😂 And my boss too he could’ve just emailed Mr. Müller himself in the first place, but instead he waited for me to do it, and I obviously can’t control how fast people respond.

Anyway, when he found out about the hotel issue, he asked me about the departure date for the visit. I thought he meant the departure from the Maldives, but apparently, he was asking about the one from Germany. LOL. I couldn’t remember, so I said I forgot and that’s when he got really pissed. I don’t even remember what he said, but he was clearly frustrated.

So I just grabbed my laptop, checked the dates, and I think that’s when he realized he went a bit overboard. His tone changed suddenly he was calm again, talking like a normal, civil person. At that moment, I felt this weird warmth at the back of my head, like I just shrunk in my seat. I honestly felt so small. I know I should’ve remembered the details, but sometimes facing him is just… a whole struggle. LOL.