Last Minute Inventory

Last-minute inventory, both literally and figuratively. It was raining all day. The day before the end of the year felt surprisingly calm, even though we were hustling in the stock room. Normally, this kind of thing weighs me down, but for some reason, I'm feeling alright now. Maybe it's because Mr. Habeeb and Azard aren't around, making the vibes a bit lighter.

Going to Island

I'm heading to Dhaalu Atoll Hospital (Dh. Kudahuvadhoo) today. I just wanted to vent a bit because I've been trying to get a tourniquet that I need to bring to the island. However, the process is incredibly slow, and when I inquired about the delay, they nonchalantly questioned why I was in such a hurry, citing my 5 pm flight.

I found it frustrating because I simply want to be prepared and have everything in order before heading to the airport. I don't want to end up rushing at the last minute like Azard. These kinds of situations make my eyes roll faster than usual

Azan can be quite irritating most of the time. I can't forget how he got on my nerves over a box I really needed a long time ago. He can be so inconsiderate. I won't bother asking him if I need something done. I'm not a fan of asking people around me for help because I don't want to trouble them, and besides, I don't want them turning around and asking me for favors as well.  LOL!

I'm aware that these people might expect something in return just because they did me a favor, and I really dislike that expectation. 

confused

 I'm feeling quite exhausted and disoriented today. Last night, I deviated from my usual sleeping routine, going to bed earlier and neglecting my usual study time. Despite my efforts, I found myself inevitably sinking into a deep slumber as soon as I lay down on my bed—it was a quick snap, and I was asleep.

Having said all that, today feels a bit confusing for me—I didn't even bother checking the day, only to realize it's Friday, and we don't have work. I wondered why some shops were closed and the office was empty when I arrived. I initially thought it might be a public holiday, and no one informed me, but upon checking my laptop, I discovered it's just Friday.

Well, I'm just mentally and physically exhausted. Vans stayed with me for two nights, and while I'm happy to spend time with him, accommodating people can be draining. It took a toll on my energy levels.

Overnight

Vans crashed at my place last night. Poor thing's heartbroken and her life's all over the place. I saw it coming, though, given how messed up her relationship was from the get-go. It's good she's realizing it now, but I can't say I'm totally on board with the quick-fix moves she pulled in the heat of the moment. But hey, if it makes her happy, who am I to argue? Both she and the guy share the blame for this chaos.

Here's hoping she takes something meaningful away from all of this.

Gaafu Alifu Villingili

 So, yesterday I finally landed in Gaafu Alif Villingili, and let me tell you, the view from the window seat during the flight made me appreciate my job more than I thought I would. It's crazy how lucky I am to get this bird's-eye view, flying through the clouds and feeling like I'm in a different world.

But today, things took a turn. I was in the middle of training nurses at the hospital when Azard, bless his heart, decided to play the interruption game. I couldn't help but roll my eyes in my head. It's not that I hate the guy, but seriously, it felt like he was trying to show off or something. Dude, it's my job—I know what I'm doing.

And then, to top it off, he starts reminding me about what to discuss, like it's my first rodeo. Ugh, major eye roll moment. It's not about hating Azard, but his insensitivity was off the charts. I'm just trying to do my thing, you know?

To make matters worse, he brings up the fact that Habeeb might questioning me why I didn't bring certain stuff. Like, come on! I'm on my leave, and they asked me to cut it short for this. Is that even ethical? Sometimes it feels like they think they own us just because they're the bosses.

And don't even get me started on how they make a big deal out of everything. I mean, I'm glad to be here doing the training, but could they at least let me go back to the office from my annual leave and plan things properly? Nope, they couldn't wait. It's like the world will end if I don't drop everything and come running.

Honestly, I don't want to quit—I like what I do. But I want to do it on my terms, you know? Make my own timeline and work without drowning in a toxic environment. Lately, it's been a crazy ride—studying notes, dealing with IGMH concerns, and juggling toxic office vibes. I'm seriously thinking about starting fresh in Dubai

Leave on rant

Hey, currently in the middle of my leave, and it's a bit frustrating how the company doesn't seem to respect that. They want me to cut it short for some unscheduled training on these islands, and why on earth do I need to be stuck with Azard all the time? Seriously. I can handle the training solo and travel without him. It's annoying, and I'm pretty peeved about it.

If Azard can handle the training, let him do it. I just needed to vent, even though I know there's not much I can do. Gotta go with the flow, I guess – just a regular employee in the grand scheme of things.

I'm not a fan of how these people seem to overlook the importance of respecting others' time. At this stage in my life, I couldn't care less about going the extra mile for this company. They don't appreciate my efforts, so why should I exert additional energy just to please them? I've been more than willing to contribute my best, but the recent IGMH fiasco has left me feeling like they could easily throw me under the bus and place all the blame on me.

What's more, I'm not pleased with how Ms. Yvonne and Habeeb are quick to point fingers at me and label me as irresponsible. In reality, I've been following their instructions and doing what I believe is the best course of action in that specific scenario. LOL I dropped a message to Azard, suggesting he give me a heads up if he plans to hit the island. Can't deal with last-minute plans. His response? I can reschedule my trip later. Classic. These folks are so unorganized, loving the spontaneity and randomness. Doesn't quite work for me, especially when it comes to job-related stuff. I'm all about planning and having some control over what's supposed to happen. Right?

Anyway will plan the necessary visit to the island right before my leave on Feb. I need a serious travel plans so I can do my study in between.